Happy memories...

A Roller Coaster Love

It has been a month now and a lot of crazy things have happened...

From the read this book for inspiration... Friday the 13th reminds me of something... funny thoughts about the blog... Nothing I just remembered you... Chatting with the wasted... Next day I'm still drunk...

I was UP then I was DOWN.... Happy at some point then back to being Sad...
Confused? Yes.
Anxious? Maybe
In Love? I really don't know!

Whooooo! This is really a one crazy roller coaster ride!

Wanting for more? Or wishing it would stop?

It's Complicated

After the unexpected, he came back to me asking for another chance, we can start over again and just enjoy life... :)

But unfortunately, after 2 months, it happened again, or should I say it was worst and close to a really bad ending... :(

In a relationship but It's Complicated... whenever I see this status, I'm really clueless, what the hell? why mention such thing? It was just recently I get to understand the real meaning of It's Complicated... :(

It was just a small fight that led to another unexpected event... a break-up?

He started telling me unwanted thoughts...things you're not supposed to tell unless you wanted a break-up... He said I'm better off with someone romantic... someone my opposite... things that I can't understand or won't like to understand or can't accept to hear coming from him... :( He added that he really has problem in making commitments and he really sucks as a boyfriend... :(

That night, I cried and told myself, he was trying to push me away, he doesn't care anymore, he doesn't love me anymore... :( Then, I decided to move away, not text him, no effort from me...and he did the same! :(

It was really hard for me... cried so many tears... I had so many thoughts and realizations about our relationship, about him, and about me... I decided to move forward and just leave our relationship just like that...if that's what he wanted then be it...

After 2 weeks, I got a text from him - hi, musta? I replied and a small catching up happened...He came back as if nothing happened between us... I acted the same thing...but the next day, I texted him that I didn't like what happened, I was trying to move on and he came back, it's so hard and I can't really be a friend to him... :(

No reply from him, I guess he wanted the same thing... :(

The Unexpected

It was a fight coming; I didn't realize it can be a huge one!

Real huge that he said that I was really a big stress for him and that our relationship is "nakakatamad" na...

I felt I was slapped so hard that it made me cry... I broke down to tears!

I really can't help it; I was hurt with those words! I never thought he felt this way all the time being with me... I know I have been a good girlfriend, always there, sweet, loving, and just being me in love with him...

He wanted and requested for some space...

I really didn't want it, but this is what he wanted and so it goes...

It has been 3 days now of no communication...

Me wondering... Me thinking... Me confused... What the hell is happening with US? :(

20 months...

No blog from me today, this is a special post written by one of my closest friend, B...she wrote this for nothing, she just felt writing something sweet about their love story... :)

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What are you eating, he asked. ReBel bar, I replied. Funny that it started with that simple error from me that had followed a lot more unacceptable mispronounced words- still, he had managed to correct me and smile at me back.

It's been 20 months of thousands of fights, window shopping for shoes together, pigging out, fighting on who'll decide where to go, what to watch and what to eat, sleeping, and secretly looking at each other's phones.

I realized the other day after my dinner with R on why I love him, It's not entirely on what we share in common but most on the differences we have. I often care on what people might feel and say about the things that I do. He doesn't care hearing negative things from people. I love chick flicks. He prefers to avoid them. I'm addicted to pictures. He couldn't care less. I hate coke, especially those bought in Mcdo. He loves coke, talking about McDonald's coke. I love cheesy stuff. He can't stand them.I love going to the mall and watch people as they run on sale. He prefers to stay home and watch dvd and more. Don't we just hate ourselves for being the worst couple? No- we're still in tact, very much in love.

I love it. That we can openly be honest with each other. That we already have these games that we play together when we're alone. That every after fight, there are realizations and forgiveness. I love the fact that I knew it would always be him. It just has to be. No one gets me better but him.

I know what we have is different. And that's what makes it great.

2 breads made my day

Woke up this morning so lazy to go to work, but of course, I had to... and so my day didn't really started right and was just not in the mood for anything!

Suddenly craving for BreadTalk, I sweetly asked my boyfriend, D to buy me some bread on his way to office that afternoon... he said okay and texted that he just got me 1 bread cause I can't really finish 2 breads, which was my original request... of course, my initial reaction was what? why just one? I also wanted the floss bread dear...hmmmm... guess can't really do anything about it...

But when I met him to get my bread, I was surprised and there were 2... ;) and I secretly smiled and felt his sweetness... awwwww...

These 2 breads made me forget my bad mood day and I really love him for that... :)

Thanks D! :)

Single but in a relationship

I started this blog last May 2009 with the idea of having a blog that would talk about anything about my singleness... that I wasn't sure until when will that be... but after 6 months, it just happened... I met someone, fell in love, happy and just loved everything about him.


Yes, I'm still single (not yet married), in a relationship, and a serious one... :)Praying and hoping for the best in US. :)

Talk about failures...

First confession - I failed to write daily in this blog, I can't really do it... been too busy with nothing... :(

Second confession - I feel totally lost with my current career right now. I know I need to move on to a new and different level but I'm uncertain on how to take that big step to go further... :(

Third confession - I have this feeling that I'm afraid to show. I think I'm scared. I really don't know... :(

I really hate these all! I need to overcome them, I will really try so help me God...

Saying Hello 2010!

It's now the 3rd day of the New Year and I have decided to bring this blog back to life after shutting it down for almost 5 months...due to some petty blog and people issues... and I'm totally over now and having a new year, new me, past is past, so whatever I have written in my previous posts then let's just leave it there, okay?

It's a new year, new me... or should I say making me better, making the most out of me this year, the best that I can be in 2010... this blog will now be my online journal of my day to day events, insights, adventures that I would want to share... for inspiration or just simply letting out what I feel... so if my stories interests you then feel free to follow and read me... ; )

I will try to write daily, I really want to and I really hope I can do it... :)

A lot have happened in 2009, a lot have changed and I think I have a lot to reveal for my following posts... so just hang on... :)